Mon amour. Sims 3.

I've realized that I have some confessions to make.

I'll do it here so only few people can see it.

But if I confess, it'll make me feel a little better.

Here goes.

* I hate my body.

* I get so angry with myself that I dig my nails into my skin, leaving bruises and nail marks mostly in my hip area. 

* I don't feel pretty unless I have makeup on and no imperfections on my face.

* I don't feel pretty unless I haven't eaten and my stomach is aching for food. 

* Before I have forced myself to believe I was sick just so I could get the contents out of my stomach. Only 3 times.

* When I don't eat until dinner, I feel accomplished and proud, but when I have dinner I feel fat and too full.

* I give myself reasons to eat junk food and then hate myself for days afterwards. 

* When I step on the scales and see I've gone up just a little bit, I'm disappointed in myself. 

* I'm scared that I'll be alone forever.

* I contradict myself constantly. eg. I say curves are better yet I strive to get thin. 

* I hate females. I hate when they try too hard to be cool, I hate when they think they have something in common with me and take it too far to the point that they're competeing with me.

* I can't stand losing or being wrong, so I avoid arguments and conversations that are oppinionated.

Nobody knows about this because I don't want attention.

I don't want to know what people think. It's a pain that I have inside, I know I should ignore but I definitely don't want to share it with people. 

ANYWAY

On a lighter note, I am happy right now which is why I could handle typing this and telling the truth. 

Can't wait for the sims 3!